i am neurotic.

I also have to type in a strange way. If i have typed a letter with my right hand that i felt i should’ve typed with my left, I have to go back and re-type it. Every time I have to go back because i made a mistake, I cannot use the backspace button; i always delete the letters or highlight and delete them in some combination. really annoying.

When somebody is talking to me I type the words that they’re saying out by clicking my teeth. I click the left side for letters that you would type with your left hand, the right side for letters you would type with your right hand, and I close my teeth together in the middle for the space bar. I seem to do it more often if I feel nervous. I even type out my own thoughts when I’m trying really hard to put things into words…

A lot of the time, in normal conversation I end up ‘typing’ out the conversation in my head on my mental keyboard. It’s actually really irritating sometimes, and I can’t seem to shake it off.

I have an imaginary key board on my hands, mostly on my thumbs, but the space bar is the side of my pointer finger- anyway- I don’t know how this started- but when I am anxious, stressed, in an intense conversation, etc.- I will fixate on one particular word, and type it on my fake key board over and over again. Some of my friends who know me really well (and have seen me through some stressful or intense times) will notice it right away, and say “what are you typing?” Some of them can even guess what word or phrase, exactly, I’m typing. Not because they can see it on the keyboard, just because they know what word I would probably be fixating on.