i am neurotic.

Every time i see anything rainbowish, i have to look for the Roy G. Biv pattern.

I’m neurotic about my eye sight. I always think I’m going blind. Today, I started freaking out because my eyesight was so blurry. Then I remembered I didn’t have my glasses on.

When it snows I have to keep checking on it to make sure it’s still coming down. I get this completely nonsensical feeling that if I don’t the snow will get lazy and stop. I have been doing this since I was about six years old and as a twenty year old still do it.

Anytime I sit at a table, I cant have anything standing upright on the table if its too tall to see someone across the table. I get so nervous and have to take it down or it’ll bother me to the point where i’m freaking out instead of eating. The roll of paper towels on our table is a big problem for me. At school we sit in tables in my art class, we were making artwork out of recycled items and someone from my table brought in a tall cheez it box and kept teasing me by not letting me take it down and putting it right in front of me. I don’t know what it is about it, but it just makes me really nervous.

Whenever I’m a passenger in a car, I’ll look at the wind shield for a water mark or any spot and I’ll focus on it. Then I close one eye and try not to let the spot hit anything like a telephone wire, building, or anything solid. I’ll switch which eyes are closed or open to make the spot appear to “jump” across wires, and I’ll also move my head to change the angle I see it at to avoid it intercepting with any objects.

I can’t talk to people if they are not making eye contact with me, or at least looking my direction. If I do, I feel they are not listening to me.

Every time I poop I have to take a minute to look at it before flushing. It’s kinda gross, but I’m terrified that I’ll poop blood or something and not know that I did and die because I missed the symptom.

Tomato seeds/juice seriously freaks me out. But the problem is I love tomatoes! I can eat salsa, but I can’t look at it, and if I feel a seed in my mouth, or see one, I get kind of nuts. I have to put the seed in a napkin and I can’t look at it at all. I really can’t watch other people eat tomatoes either.

Whenever I take a shower, I need to make sure that there aren’t any rubber duckies (or other bath toys) facing me. I always turn them around so that they can’t watch me.

Snow-globes make SUPER angry. When I see one, I have strong urges to smash it on the floor. Nothing else in this world irks me as much a snow-globe does. It’s not that they\’re boring and pointless, it’s just something about the way they sit there MOCKING me. They represent so much wasted time, energy and space.